A writer's honest rant?

Ok, I am done.

I have been painstakingly staring at this blank page for weeks now, hoping something would naturally occur to me to pour out onto it. Dear busy reader, you don't have to read this rant. This is just an honest version of me, pouring out how it has been hard lately to do one thing I always want to do and claim to love: write.

I thought motivation would hit me. The aching to find the right words would eventually pass, and I would accidentally, yet profoundly, stumble upon those words of wisdom that I could pour onto this page with so much affection that you'd find it super interesting, and we’d be best friends. So nope, that is not happening, because I ain’t a magician, and I’m honestly kinda surprised that you read this far.

I am surrounded by half-done stories, unedited drafts, and half-written blog posts. I thought it would come around, but it didn’t. And it still doesn’t. Maybe I’m being lazy? I don’t know. I don’t think so. But when there’s a cool word to blame it on called creative block, why would I blame myself?

It’s a tough spot. I have ideas, topics, and projects that should soon be part of this blog, but everything feels crumbled and squished into one box. I can’t even sort through it and solve this mental mystery of what I’m actually doing.

So what am I suggesting? I promised one thing at the start of this blog: I’d honour this space to cultivate raw and honest conversations. So here’s the most raw and honest version of me you’ll get. There will be consistent entries to put down the thoughts. Read at your own risk, to be honest, because this is gonna be the most real stuff I can write about myself. It’ll contain personal stories, everyday affairs, and mostly random, crumbled thoughts from my head, put into a format so we can make some sense of them.

Because honestly, I am tired of sticking to the rules of what it’s all supposed to be. These will be short notes on the simple yet worthy aspects of living.

So why this post? To reaffirm. To remind myself and my dear readers: despite it all, I am writing. I am showing up.